just another day in paradise....

more comedy, more drama... i am stuck at a place where i know what i have isn't what i want... i know what i want, but it's what i can't have. what i want is what i need, what i am suppose to have, but i can't have it. why!!!
i really want to meet a nice boy, a little country, a little rock, someone who wants family & home, someone who i can act retarded around, and still be serious & naughty. really naughty. why is that so hard? i want to get married. dance & sing karaoke at my wedding. have videos that we can all get together and laugh at when we have cookouts. i want to take the kids camping (yes, multiple) and go out on the lake. i wanna do normal stuff. i really do.
why can't i have normal? don't i deserve normal? i really think i do. seriously.